Home Alone on a Saturday

I am currently downloading Lou Pardini's "What Might Have Been". I know...it's silly to think about the what-if's but I can't help it.

Last Thursday, Blue just blurted that I bought the Star Value card worth a thousand while he was talking to my friend. I was shocked that he even noticed me; I didn't know that he saw me when I nodded as I walked past him in the MRT station. FYI, I'm blind when I'm not wearing my eyeglasses. I can only recognize people who are right in front of me.

Wait... my HS friend, just logged in on YM. I don't know why but I don't feel like chatting with him right now. It's too complicated.

Change topic. I'm invisible so I'm fine...unless he's Superman, right?

Back to Blue, we had another "incident" yesterday. He was on his way at the back to return his manual and he bumped into me or maybe I bumped into him. I'm a walking disaster when I'm around my crush so normally, I try to hate them. Weird huh. Well, it's my defense mechanism. If I will continue to admire them, my life would be in chaos. I can't concentrate on the important things and I am instantly transformed to the clumsy me. If you were in my shoes, I'm sure you'll also do the same thing.

Whoever said having a crush as an inspiration is good, may not have retained their sanity along the way. I understand the other side of it but the concept obviously does not apply to everyone. Especially me.

I called up friends who may want to sleep over because unfortunately, my sister is celebrating her birthday in advance with her friends. Her HS friend already went home because of some unexpected delay in her review so I was left alone. My so-called friends are unreachable or busy or sleeping. Left with no other choice, I'm contemplating over buying beer in 7-11 and drinking on my own or just having a DVD marathon since they're piling up now due to my new job.

I feel like a loner if I'll buy the beer(s) in 7-11 and it's a Saturday night! I have tons of friends; where the hell are they????