Busy weekend

I'm dying when I arrived home yesterday. I went out to eat dinner with my office mates (not part of my plans) right after my shift.

My friend Rae, who also happened to be my ex-office mate, called me to meet up so I did. My sister sent me a message that she's going to the mall to watch a movie and invited me to come with her and another friend. Who am I to refuse her? I don't want to go home alone again and try to tire myself to death (it's a daily routine). Left with no other choice, I got there to join them.

We watched Dreamgirls. I love it. As a frustrated singer, you bet I did. Jennifer Hudson was just amazing. Beyonce looked glamorous as ever. I loved the songs too. I almost cried in one of the scenes but I realized I was just teary-eyed because of lack of sleep.

Last Saturday, I almost caused a scene with the guy I'm avoiding. I simply told him I'm tired and needed to get a cab so that I wouldn't walk the rest of the way with him.

Honestly, he's a nice guy. He's a good conversationalist and he seemed intelligent too. He can be funny and serious at the same time. He's also friendly to all my friends except the gay one that I hang out with. My friend said he didn't even look at him when they bumped into each other on the ground floor. But other than that, I can say he's an excellent guy.

It's weird. He's not courting me but everyone thinks he is with the way he's acting when he's around me. I guess it's too early to tell. I don't like judging people. I mean, I want to get to know someone better before I make any conclusion. Especially when someone hasn't said anything yet right? If I remember correctly, I met him last Wednesday (5 days!). That's a really short time to judge someone.

That's the hard part for me.

Once I get to know a person, I instantly have this opinion of him in my mind. I like him as a friend and a brother but I can't imagine anything more than that. I'm just afraid that I'd hurt someone again like what happened in high school. When I ignored this guy who's courting me, I knew I hurt him but I didn't care. I'm probably wiser now because I don't want to cause the same pain I, myself, felt when someone I like didn't return the feeling.

Okay...okay, enough of the drama. I'm getting hungry, maybe some munchies would wipe away these blues...