Busy weekend

I'm dying when I arrived home yesterday. I went out to eat dinner with my office mates (not part of my plans) right after my shift.

My friend Rae, who also happened to be my ex-office mate, called me to meet up so I did. My sister sent me a message that she's going to the mall to watch a movie and invited me to come with her and another friend. Who am I to refuse her? I don't want to go home alone again and try to tire myself to death (it's a daily routine). Left with no other choice, I got there to join them.

We watched Dreamgirls. I love it. As a frustrated singer, you bet I did. Jennifer Hudson was just amazing. Beyonce looked glamorous as ever. I loved the songs too. I almost cried in one of the scenes but I realized I was just teary-eyed because of lack of sleep.

Last Saturday, I almost caused a scene with the guy I'm avoiding. I simply told him I'm tired and needed to get a cab so that I wouldn't walk the rest of the way with him.

Honestly, he's a nice guy. He's a good conversationalist and he seemed intelligent too. He can be funny and serious at the same time. He's also friendly to all my friends except the gay one that I hang out with. My friend said he didn't even look at him when they bumped into each other on the ground floor. But other than that, I can say he's an excellent guy.

It's weird. He's not courting me but everyone thinks he is with the way he's acting when he's around me. I guess it's too early to tell. I don't like judging people. I mean, I want to get to know someone better before I make any conclusion. Especially when someone hasn't said anything yet right? If I remember correctly, I met him last Wednesday (5 days!). That's a really short time to judge someone.

That's the hard part for me.

Once I get to know a person, I instantly have this opinion of him in my mind. I like him as a friend and a brother but I can't imagine anything more than that. I'm just afraid that I'd hurt someone again like what happened in high school. When I ignored this guy who's courting me, I knew I hurt him but I didn't care. I'm probably wiser now because I don't want to cause the same pain I, myself, felt when someone I like didn't return the feeling.

Okay...okay, enough of the drama. I'm getting hungry, maybe some munchies would wipe away these blues...

Lucky Me...

I'm up with the clouds right now. I passed the inevitable! I also met M, who made me feel 2 things at the same time: confused and inspired (and uhhmm...headturner? Naah maybe it's just my imagination).

I felt so self-conscious while on a call because he kept looking at me like there's mud on my face. I almost asked him that. Good thing I didn't!

If only...

...I can freeze this day.;)

Vacation Mode

I love this day...

...a simple gesture from a stranger (the chair thing), a tap on the shoulder from someone you like (Q&A portion), the lingering gaze from a new friend, eating plato wraps with one of my closest bud and the best: 4 days off of work!!!

Awesome.

I hope I can remember this day on the major-bummer days...;)

Quotable quotes:

"It's not what you say, it's how you say it."

Doom's Day

Why?

~We received our ID's today so the password may be released tonight. (the end of our online gaming days)
~I will see him again. Why does he call my name every now and then he says it's nothing? What's up with that?
~My name on the login is one of my first names but I never used it in my 23 years of existence!
~I don't know how to use the tools at work yet and I'm going to use them all tonight??? I'm not a computer which can just be programmed, you know...
~I got a confirmation from my current crush that he's married. Has 2 kids (one of which has a name of Louise. I like that name. Not anymore.) and he's in his late 30's. I had thought of that but I was still shocked. Anyway, it's just a crush, plain and simple.
~I'm having ulcers from too much coffee and iced tea.
~I might have a sore throat tonight from lack of sleep. (it's one thing to talk and another to express yourself as a reliable person with a harsh voice)
~My ex-suitor(?) from college suddenly called me earlier asking to meet up for coffee, which I definitely declined.

----->Why should I go with him after waking me up 6 hours before my shift? He didn't even say sorry. Darn. I soooooo HATE him.

~I had nothing better to do to pass the time so I'm here once again...blogging my ass off.

Some Friday huh?

First Buddy-Up ;)

Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the wrong words seem to rhyme
Out of the doubt that fills my mind
I somehow find
You and I collide
~Collide by Howie

This song just keeps playing on my head right now. Maybe that's because I have a headset with the song playing on my left ear. LOL...

It's just appropriate with what happened today. I am usually like that. I happened to get tangled up in a song that fits my life at the moment.

For an update, we had a listen-in with one of the pioneer screeners earlier. I got lucky and sat with Dominic. He's cool. I learned a lot from him, especially with the tricks and some games to keep me up while at work. Haha...Well, I wouldn't forget him because he made me feel different. He even said he'll miss me after the coordinator dragged me out of his work station. He's fun to hang out with and he's also a smoker plus gifted with a good voice. Am I lucky or what?!? =)

The other guy, Phil-the one who pestered me last week and kept sending text messages, was absent today. He said his grandma was rushed to the hospital. I felt sorry for him although I was also glad he was out of the picture for the highlight of my week. I can't seem to concentrate when he's there. He's always teasing me about stuff I don't wish to discuss. Period.

By the way, my crush in the training, has a ring on his left hand. :C

He's probably married.
I knew it.
Even my office mates think he's a family man.

He's always rushing to go home after the shift and busy talking to someone on the phone. He's not talking about kids so he must've been newly married. Sigh. So much for THE dream date. Anyway, I got a picture of him after bringing my digicam earlier. It's sad though because he's not into taking pictures. I only got him in one picture so far, with a bunch of my batch mates. It's also too far but thanks to zoom I can still see his one-in-a-million smile.

I wonder what will happen later...Hmm..