The Flu

I got sick since last Monday before I attended my orientation for my new "job". I can barely breathe due to the flu but I still went there thinking that it's not such a big deal since it's only for 2 hours--I can handle it. Right? What's 2 hours? It's almost like watching a movie without the popcorn and drinks.

Yeah right. My hands were both clammy, my mind almost numb from the scary lecture given by the director regarding their strictness in attendance and my stomach kept rumbling on the background because I wasn't able to eat much before 5 p.m.

This new company made us wait for hours during the hiring process but of course, they had to keep up with the reputation and make us wait AGAIN on orientation. I'm grateful for their way of apologizing by providing us with food after the scary lecture from the Aussie guy director but it doesn't compensate the long wait.

I'm not sure if I got sick because I had this premonition that I don't want to work there or it's due to the ever-changing weather. I also got drenched from the rain last Sunday before I got home and didn't bother to take a bath so that must be it...

I thought I had superpowers against the rain because it's my favorite weather and I like Storm from X-Men-- guess not.

I met a couple of new acquaintances there like Kev-- a slightly shy girl who doesn't reply much to my comments, Xie-- a timid girl who's more of "I don't want to talk to anyone" mode which is almost plastered to her forehead and Red-- a guy who just smiles all the time when he can't think of anything better to say.

I met some who worked from the same company as my sister but the common things ended there.

They say you always bond with people you have something in common with and for the whole 2 hours of that "Meet and Greet" I don't think I've met anyone I can really get along with.

There's another girl who I thought would most likely be a potential friend since she came from my previous company but she seemed such a snob when she replied about knowing a common friend. It was like, "Who the hell cares?" with a flip of her short hair. Okaaaay, I think I got more sick after that.

Realizing that my sticker name tag was inverted as Kev bluntly pointed it out was not enough. After the ID pictorial, I left the building and walked out the back door like a cat and crossed the street. A man I passed by called me by my name and that's when I realized I still had the sticker name tag on.

(Geez, I'm such a klutz. This is the effect of not working for a few months. What would it be like if it's a year?)

Currently, my biggest dilemma is not facing those co-workers who seem like aliens to me. It's the fact that I might really be sick after watching the A (H1N1) on TV over and over again. Based from the symptoms, I only have the cough and flu. I didn't experience the rest of it (e.g. diarrhea, vomitting etc).

I can barely breathe even after drinking a gallon of calamansi juice and daily dose of vitamin C. I've consumed about 2 rolls of tissue and my nose is more red than any reindeer on Christmas. I truly hope I'm okay by Sunday because the schedule assigned for training is 7 a. m.

Major torture for people like me who usually live at night. I don't want to miss this opportunity but if fate really doesn't want me to start on Monday, I think I might decide to cancel going to the company altogether instead of delaying it if they'll reconsider keeping me there.

I hate the fact that I believe in signs but THIS is the biggest sign I ever got since I prayed in Baclaran. I asked Him to help me make the right decision in choosing my next work.

We were supposed to pass the requirements last Monday during the orientation. Unfortunately, the HR who handles it already left and we were asked to submit everything on Monday instead. All of us ended up bringing the freaking long BROWN envelope (FYI: I've never applied for work with a brown envelope in my entire life--for the sole purpose of being subtle about your goal for the day) which contains the offer and necessary documents required back home AGAIN.

Well, I could be reading it incorrectly or my imagination is running wild again because maybe I don't really like the company in the first place and I just want to do something with my life. Is it sooo bad??

I feel like I'm being swallowed by a black hole and everyday before Monday (June 8) is pulling me closer to neverland...

Isn't shopping for the business casual outfits already a pain in the ***? I haven't even done it yet and I only have 4 days! I had to be sick to make it more exciting and challenging, huh.

I sound like I'm in HS complaining about finding an outfit for Prom. Well, that must be the reason I never loved HS like the others.